Tales of kitchens, friends and football
Aaaargh!
Another long time away from the blog. Partly due to a lot going on, and partly down to forgetting the password to get onto the blogging site! Irritating, especially since I signed straight in this morning without even thinking about it!
So what's been going on? Lots of trauma here... nothing that has had lots of long reaching effects. All is still the same... no break ups or undue hassle, but there was a near meltdown on the way here.
So, what happened? Well, it all started when Kar was away in Japan, and the receipt of some emails. Because of a lack of regular access to a computer, and also the time lag, I was caught up in some of her news, and unable to talk things through as both of us would have wanted. I got completely stressed out over it all, and went into that near meltdown. (Obviously, I'm not going to discuss other folks business. I'm happy to be as open and honest about myself as I need to, but not about others.) At the time, I managed to convince myself that I was more fond of Kar than I should be, to the extent of falling for her, and I was struggling to come to terms with what she told me, and with my feelings. Major trauma ensued, particularly when she returned, after a few intense emails and a couple of online chats. One Friday, I'd worked myself into such a state, I left work at 10 am, and went to bed for a couple of hours. That made a big difference.
I have had a few bad days since, but on the whole it's been much better. I've had lots of time to think things through. I've realised that I'm not falling for Kar. I'll admit I am a bit more fond of her than I should be, as a married man, but that's unavoidable, she's great! And gorgeous! I'll make no secret of the fact that if the both of us were single, I'd be interested, and that I could fall for her easily. (Though she did say she doesn't see me in that way, which would be a bit of a bugger really!) The problem was, I think, that she was so far away, and I was unable to help her out as much as I wanted. The stress of it all triggered a lot of things off, including worries over me and Sue, and loads of other things I've yet to work out.
The big step is that I start counselling sessions next week. While I feel goodish at the moment, I don't want any more episodes, and I need to sort out underlying problems too. The assessment for counselling was useful in itself, and the counsellor, Maggie, gave me a lot of food for thought. I hadn't talked so much for a long while, and it was an eye opener for me. My first appointment is with Shelley next week, and I'll keep the blog informed of progress.
Funnily enough, on the day of my counselling assessment, I headed off to Broomfield to have my skin tag/pedunculated naevus removed. That was relatively painless.
OK, kitchens next. Sue and I are getting a new kitchen done. The bits are coming from Wicks, with a new American style fridge freezer from Bennetts. One of those sexy side by side jobbies. Mick will be helping us with the installation so we'll be ok. The kitchen needs restructuring from floor to ceiling and is way to big a job for us on our own. Destroying the old one will be fun though!
And footie... the World Cup is in progress now, with two last 16 matches remaining. The current state of play is as follows:
Another long time away from the blog. Partly due to a lot going on, and partly down to forgetting the password to get onto the blogging site! Irritating, especially since I signed straight in this morning without even thinking about it!
So what's been going on? Lots of trauma here... nothing that has had lots of long reaching effects. All is still the same... no break ups or undue hassle, but there was a near meltdown on the way here.
So, what happened? Well, it all started when Kar was away in Japan, and the receipt of some emails. Because of a lack of regular access to a computer, and also the time lag, I was caught up in some of her news, and unable to talk things through as both of us would have wanted. I got completely stressed out over it all, and went into that near meltdown. (Obviously, I'm not going to discuss other folks business. I'm happy to be as open and honest about myself as I need to, but not about others.) At the time, I managed to convince myself that I was more fond of Kar than I should be, to the extent of falling for her, and I was struggling to come to terms with what she told me, and with my feelings. Major trauma ensued, particularly when she returned, after a few intense emails and a couple of online chats. One Friday, I'd worked myself into such a state, I left work at 10 am, and went to bed for a couple of hours. That made a big difference.
I have had a few bad days since, but on the whole it's been much better. I've had lots of time to think things through. I've realised that I'm not falling for Kar. I'll admit I am a bit more fond of her than I should be, as a married man, but that's unavoidable, she's great! And gorgeous! I'll make no secret of the fact that if the both of us were single, I'd be interested, and that I could fall for her easily. (Though she did say she doesn't see me in that way, which would be a bit of a bugger really!) The problem was, I think, that she was so far away, and I was unable to help her out as much as I wanted. The stress of it all triggered a lot of things off, including worries over me and Sue, and loads of other things I've yet to work out.
The big step is that I start counselling sessions next week. While I feel goodish at the moment, I don't want any more episodes, and I need to sort out underlying problems too. The assessment for counselling was useful in itself, and the counsellor, Maggie, gave me a lot of food for thought. I hadn't talked so much for a long while, and it was an eye opener for me. My first appointment is with Shelley next week, and I'll keep the blog informed of progress.
Funnily enough, on the day of my counselling assessment, I headed off to Broomfield to have my skin tag/pedunculated naevus removed. That was relatively painless.
OK, kitchens next. Sue and I are getting a new kitchen done. The bits are coming from Wicks, with a new American style fridge freezer from Bennetts. One of those sexy side by side jobbies. Mick will be helping us with the installation so we'll be ok. The kitchen needs restructuring from floor to ceiling and is way to big a job for us on our own. Destroying the old one will be fun though!
And footie... the World Cup is in progress now, with two last 16 matches remaining. The current state of play is as follows:
QUARTER FINALS
Germany vs Argentina
England vs Portugal
Italy vs Ukraine
Brazil or Ghana vs Spain or France
I can't say I've been that impressed with the standard of football. The tournament has been marked by over zealous refereeing... too many bookings and sendings off. It's been enjoyable though. England have plodded to the last 8 with the following results...
vs Paraguay 1-0 (own goal)
vs Trinidad and Tobago 2-0 (Crouch, Gerrard)
vs Sweden 2-2 (J. Cole, Gerrard)
vs Ecuador 1-0 (Beckham)
We haven't hit the heights yet. Rooney is fit and awesome after the metatarsal saga. Owen is home after cruciate ligament damage, and Theo Walcott is causing controversy having been picked without a single Premiership game for The Arse. Sven seems reluctant to give him a run out. My main man, Aaron Lennon has made a couple of substitute appearances and looks awesome.
The team against Ecuador showed promise... lining up in a 4-1-4-1 formation as follows:
Robinson; Hargreaves, Terry, Ferdinand, A Cole; Carrick; Beckham, Lampard, Gerrard, J. Cole; Rooney.
I haven't seen anything from the other teams which suggests an on form England can't win the cup. But we need to find our form, sharpish. Argentina looked unbeatable when dispatching Serbia-Montenegro 6-0, but struggled to beat the Mexicoans (thanks to Buffy's Andrew for that!) 2-1 after extra time. Brazil look unconvincing so far. (We are due a major shock... maybe Ghana overturning them will be that shock!) Germany are on a roll, and for once, Spain look to have attitude to go with the talent. The other remaining sides are all much of a muchness I think.
But last night's 0-0 between Switzerland and Ukraine... the term 'bore draw' was invented specifically for that game. The Swiss couldn't even score in the shoot out!
Well, back on track blog wise, but there is more catching up to do.
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